the last straw

Remember how I mentioned before that this month I have been in a way forced to grow spiritually and mature? I felt it was all put to a final test yesterday. Really.

The weeks has been tough and God had always been there; to comfort and opened my eyes to things that I have not seen. Also to comprehend beyond my understanding. Like a saying "When you have God you have denied loneliness" it was preached before only now you live to ride it.

I had a vision close to two months ago and I have no idea what it is about until yesterday then I realised what it meant. I was foolish not to seek God and I paid the price. All the while I had no peace and my spirit was troubled. I held on and it was tough. Nobody should go through it. God was my only refuge I mean ppl cant always be there.

A thousand things flashed my mind when I heard something my ears would never want to endure. Never been so broken. Never so hurt.

I really praise God for preparing me before and raising me up-working this grace and love through me. God knows my heart it was crying out so loud that I couldnt hear myself thinking properly. It was draining. One of the darkest times.

In short, things are getting back on track now. Rode out of the storm. I know we have been thought to love our neighbour as ourselves and treat others how you want to be treated. I did the only thing I could. Blessing someone. I praise God for his peace and wisdom to do the right thing. The devil will come to kill, steal and destroy but only when you fight it then you see victory.

Here is the crunch. Only when your walk is right then everything will fall into place.

Its over.

The Omnipotent.

Philippians 4:7:

And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your
hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

Outside.

You bring me to my knees again
All the times that I could beg you please, in vain

Time like this...

I never meant to make you feel different around me. You have been away for so long and I really do miss you. I am sorry if I was too impulsive but know my kind intentions now at least it has come to my attention. Its not within my reach to do anything now. I give you all the time you need. I am sorry.

Always in my prayers and thoughts.

Tuesday Grp

On my way there with my sis an old man offered to move aside so both of us could sit together. So as usual I initated a conversation with him in Chinese mind you! Haha.. Yeah and one of the things he said was not to think so much and its interesting how how God works in our lives! Our God is never a boring God! Amen!

Indeed it was really a shift in my spiritual p.o.v I hope I can remember all the stuff to share with you.

Romans 1:21
"For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God or gave thanks to Him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened."

Yes! God's word deserves to be in Bold! Haha! Anyways yeah smth to learn from this verse is that it starts with thoughts that we have that leads to out hearts to be hardened. For example there are ppl who blame their parents for their upbringing and their hearts turn cold and fingers start to point but truth is there is restoration in Christ and in Him we are made complete! Isnt that amazing?! Another thing to note is that there are alot of things that happen or we feel about start with our thoughts.

If I were to always think about Soccer (which I am totally not! though I dont see the point in the game) then soccer is pretty Big in my life right? Just like if I were to always think about Jesus and Jesus in the same way would be magnified in my life right?! Amen! So yeah Our thoughts are so powerful! Think about Harry Potter! He always says "focus.. focus" then a spell comes to past right? So we just need to focus on Jesus! We will soon be walking like him!

Another of the many stuff I learned..

Truths are always above feelings. I mean its good to have feelings and all but we must always remember about the truth! If I feel like flying and if I jump, I would certainly die cos I cant fly! If we feel that we are not loved by God or dont feel loved in anyway I urge you to receive in the truth! That God loves you! Deut 36:5 1 John 5:1 there are just too many to put down!

Last thing! I promise Do you know whats the greatest sin?

Its unbelief! Not to believe that God doesnt exist and am sure you have heard the verse before that it is impossible to please God. Below is a verse God has promised!

Ecc 2:26
To the man who pleases him, God gives wisdom, knowledge and happiness, but to the sinner he gives the task of gathering and storing up wealth to hand it over to the one who pleases God. This too is meaningless, a chasing after the wind.

Well I wouldnt say I am on a Spiritual High but I have been so hungry for God in every single way! There are so many stuff that one would be open to when your hunger is so intense! I pray that you will be blessed reading this.

We are not great men of God but men with a GREAT GOD!

Let me continue...

It was you who picked up the pieces

Retured to me what others stole

I don't wanna hurt you

I don't wanna make you sway

Like I know I've done before

I will not do it anymore

A word of psalms.

Psalms 16:11

"you have made known to me the path of life; you fill me with joy in your presence,
with eternal pleasures at your right hand."

It was there in the sentence that arrest my attention so I did just that and just dwell in his presence, it was amazing how he comforts as if he puts a robe around me. I just worship God and I was filled with so much grace and he began to unveil things I never could comprehend. Peace was in my spirit once again.

Its only when we are uncomfortable that we grow in spirit and understanding. Just think about this if you were used to give him glory isnt that the greatest thing ever? I pray that whoever is reading this would know the God that I know.


Firstly I want to thank friends around who have been praying and I am glad to have such Godly friends like you guys. Secondly I want to say thanks Duncan for dropping by with the raw fish! It was a double surprise and God really know how to bless! Amen! God's gesture was so evident through him! Thanks again man..

Living for his glory.

Hands up?

Its quite hard to keep your eyes focused on God when yr mind is so distracted.
I say amen to my faith that keeps on coming back each time I fail.
Yes I will speak to God and talk to him.

These are the words spoken over me.

Thinking out of the box.. Healing.. Faith rising up.. God has a ministry for me soon.. thinking outta of the box.

A first.

I never felt so vulnerable before to the point where God spoke through someone in church as I had a visitor entered my pre-school room. She said "I did my quiet time today and God wants me to tell you not to be afraid." I had been so down that I cant hear his voice.

I have fallen so short of his glory to be as christ-like as I can.
I am sorry God for not be the best you want me to be.
Pick me up just like how you pulled joseph out.
I deliver this unto you with total surrender.

Through the fire we are made strong.

Lets see..

This couple of weeks have been a learning process..
My eyes were opened to things I never knew..
Things that fall into place cos of him..
I need to focus my eyes on him..
Cos we all know he is the way..
Will we be ready when he comes?
I know I am not.

4 weeks ago I delicated my life for God to rock my boat to levels I have never experienced. Its been such a crazy journey and he will never put you through what you cant bear. I am getting wisdom on things that I need to take control of. Lord give me the strength if I must do.